What a Difference a Year Makes!

  Not even a whole year!  What a difference a month, or a week, or a day, or even a minute can make if you are willing to make the most of the time!  When I think back to this time last year.....I'm not even going to discuss the sadness, anxiety, pain and number of dreams I had and/or was in the process of giving up for the benefit of someone who wasn't me and who did not have my best interests at heart.

   Nine months ago, I moved from the city to a 100 acre horse farm.  When they say "You can take the girl out of the country, but you can't take the country out of the girl" they aren't kidding.   I could feel my heart and soul healing from the very first day.  I had solitude, peace and quiet, and HORSES!!

 

Eight months ago I started going back to church regularly.  God has always been important to me, but I'd done a poor job of showing it and pushed Him to a back burner where He sat quietly, patiently, (and likely unhappily) waiting for me to start making the right choices.

Six months ago, my life felt like it had truly done a 180 and I was on my way back up! Four months ago brought a new year, and the promise of possibly my best year ever.  Last month I enrolled in school again to finally get going again on the Masters Degree I've been putting off for no good reason.

Last week I had the honor of assisting twins into the world, Last night, I found a lilac bush blooming in my yard (They are my absolute favorite flower and I've never seen them in Virginia before!).  And, in these last few moments of writing this I can feel my heart overflowing with hope and gratitude. 

   A half hour from now I will be able to log on for the first time as a graduate student.  In less than two years, I'll be holding that degree.  I have the best support system in the world, they've been to hell and back with me.  I have a job I love, where I am honored to be allowed to assist new life into this world.  I live in a place where I can have coffee on my porch in the morning, and watch the stars (and they are the brightest stars!) at night.

I have an incredible partner who's relationship with God has only strengthened our bond as well as my own relationship with Him.

Time legitimately heals.  That healing happens by the second, even when you can't feel it.  I just woke up one day and realized a whole lot had changed, and that I had beaten an impossible situation, and come out better and stronger.....again.  This life is hard.  It gets ugly. There are days where waking up again sounds like the least appealing option.  But, it gets better.  Better than I'd ever even imagined it could be, and it's worth the heartbreak.

 

Keep Smiling and God Bless!